It’s been a long time since I’ve posted here. I’ve loved being able to focus on the baby and my family. I took a two month break from everything, and it was needed in order to stay in a good place. I stayed rested and unstressed which is exactly what I needed with a newborn, and a four year old in the house. I always wonder how much to share about Adelaide’s arrival; I will say, it was fast and furious. I dealt with so many insurance problems that really blew my chances of having her in a birthing center the way I wanted. When I finally came to terms with the possibility that I would have another hospital birth, Adelaide decided it was time to come. Alice Jane was a week late so we figured maybe the same thing might happen. But Adelaide came four days early on April 22nd. I’m happy she came early, I didn’t have to wait for her due day to come and go. She came at 5am, 3 hours after I woke up in hard labor. She came so fast, it surprised everyone. At the end of it all, I was so thankful she had decided to come early.
I’m so happy at where I am emotionally after Adelaide. I struggled a lot after I had Alice Jane, your whole world changes. You have to become completely unselfish, even if you think you’re not a selfish person, the independent tendencies are still there. I learned a lot about being a mom with Alice Jane, and it has helped so much to give Adelaide the love and care she needs, as well as, not losing myself in the process. I felt at times that I was losing myself with Alice Jane but I’m realizing now I was just changing and growing. I’m not the same person I was before but I know it’s for the best. I feel confident in my role now, that I never would have, before Alice Jane. I didn’t intend for this to be so deep but I love that I have a place to come back to and share.
These are the first real pictures we got of Adelaide and Alice Jane. I’m so thankful for friends that love my kids and want to take pictures of them. I love that Adelaide’s new born shoot included her big sister, Adelaide means so much to Alice Jane already. I’m so thankful for sisters.